The awesome thing about laying down all vulnerabilities, fear, insecurities, and thoughts of failures when God has started your feet down a new path in life, are the surprises that He tends to give you along the way; if you so choose to accept His platform. Just because I say YES doesn’t always mean I know all the answers…or where I’m headed.
And this is how a new story begins.
It was a normal March day working away at my job, checking my personal emails when the work had ended, that I came across one from my sister. Maxie had forwarded me an email from her coworker Marsha. My sister works for a TV production company here in Knoxville and so I figured this particular email was job related and happened to be something that caught her eye and therefore thought of me.
Hey Maxie, there is a new movie that is being made called Voiceless. They are doing this movie differently than most – they have all of the funding and now are announcing it and it will be shot soon. Stuart Migdon, the guy behind it, came to our church two Sundays ago and spoke about lovingly confronting the culture. Here’s the movie website:
Unhesitatingly I clicked on the link to read more. I knew what the title meant…it explained itself. As I read on about the movie and what they were trying to do in our communities, by rallying up an army of people that could help promote this movie, I felt that flutter in my heart. Not even the delicate touches of a butterfly’s wings kind of flutter, more like a deep flutter that descends from your heart into the pit of your stomach kind of flutter. And what comes next after that kind of flutter? The question…
Ok God, what are you up to? Tell me, I’m Yours.
Within minutes I responded to my sister, “Reading over this, I just had this overwhelming sense that God wants me to approach Pastor John at FBC with this video and “be” that person for the church. Pray for me for this.”
As the website for the movie cried out for us to get involved from sharing with your congregation to how to share it on social media, I typed in all my information to be contacted. I was eager to hear back. I wanted to see what would happen next.
Within a week, the producer of the film, Stuart Migdon wrote me back. As he thanked me for my interest, he also explained unfortunately the script was password protected (to get involved, we needed to read the script of the movie first) and that it was confidential for pastors and other ministry leaders who were wanting to help get the word out.
However, he wanted to know my interest and my “why” in helping with this cause.
Well, I’m not involved (Yet) with a ministry. So maybe this is a hint to get moving 🙂 I am a prolife blogger. (you can find me here: changingskinsavinglives.wordpress.com) and have held a fundraiser for our local crisis pregnancy center here in Knoxville, Tennessee called Hope Resource Center.
I was forwarded your email about the movie from my sister’s coworker that works for a production company called North South.
I have been praying and possibly feel led to be the “person” to talk to my pastor about seeing if this is something we could get involved with. I attend First Baptist Concord. http://fbconcord.org/
Maybe you can offer some suggestions?!
Thanks for your time!
Thanks for your response, it’s great to hear about your involvement in the fight for the babies in the womb and I appreciate your desire to get involved in getting the word out about Voiceless.
It makes sense for us to talk and I look forward to it.
Boom. The password was mine! If you could say I was beyond thrilled, I was absolutely overjoyed. This film producer has just entrusted me with his beloved movie script! And yes, he could trust me.
After weeks of phone tag, the producer of the film, Stuart, and I finally talked. I have to say, after I called him back only once, and he called me several times leaving voice messages, I was quite impressed with his ability to just forget about me and move on if he wanted. Yet he didn’t. And I finally answered.
New Jersey. Three years ago. Three hours. Stuart and his partner sat in the basement of a house and contemplated:
What can we do to impact the culture for Jesus Christ?
After much discussion, they couldn’t ignore the fact that the sin that was destroying our lives and nation, was abortion. And they had to do something about it.
Teamed up with Reel Works Studios (http://www.reelworks.net/), Stuart and his partner (the director of the film) wanted a film that would provoke and engage the church and others about an issue that was dear to their heart. Approaching Chris Cates (CEO of Reel Works Studios) with a 300 K budget, Chris wanted some changes. After reading the script he responded that this was a film that needed to be done with excellence and that they wouldn’t accomplish that on this budget. Chris developed and suggested a much higher budget. With a newer budget, the film is headed in the direction of being released in October of 2015.
With the broken screen of my smartphone pressed to my ear, I heard and understood Stuart’s heart. This movie was not just about understanding the grief of the moms, dads, and babies that have been affected by unplanned pregnancies and abortion, but it was about His grief. How our Lord hurts. How He grieves. And how much God loves us. All of us.
Now the real question was, would this man understand my heart? Would he allow be to be a part of this awesome cause?
It was my turn to tell him about this chapter in my story that God is so abundantly and presently writing for me as we speak. I told him about how I was one of those ignorant ones. One that knew abortion was all wrong because I was raised that way but hadn’t found my “voice” in the matter. I told him about how a year ago I started to read and research more and more about abortion and how it crushed my heart to it’s core by crying every time I read something new about the way a baby was murdered. I spoke about how the Lord brought me Rodan+Fields as a way to just “give back” to Hope Resource Center which led me to hosting a fundraiser for them and continuing to feel God’s will for me pressing me forward in this fight. I told him how effective my blog has been, from all the private messages I have received about how peers can get involved, how can they also fight this fight, and even people in devastating depression because they have had an abortion and need some guidance. And last but not least, how the Author of this journey, just so happened to tug on my heart strings to contact his movie and want to get involved.
“I want to join forces with you Emily-Anne. Out of so many people that have filled out that form, you are the only one I have been contact with to help me like this.” (*that last sentence is not verbatim!)
“I count you as a leader in Knoxville.”
I honestly have a hard time typing that. I cried when I text it to my mom and when I called my husband. Immediately the song that came to my head was “Who Am I?” by Casting Crowns.
Not because of who I am
But because of what You’ve done.
Not because of what I’ve done
But because of who You are
I’ve never felt so overwhelmed but so peaceful at the same time. To know that God has so specifically placed you in a path for His glory to change lives IS FOREVER AND EVER for myself to be humbly blessed to be called a part of His plan. Grateful. Amazed. And even scared at times. I won’t lie. This definitely isn’t the avenue I ever thought would have been laid out before me. So that is why I ask, “Who am I Lord? Who am I?”
So I challenge you on TWO things today:
1)What plan has God called you to be a part of? Are you too scared to move forward? Do you truly trust Him with where He is leading you? And can I pray for you for that? I would absolutely love to! Please email me: Emilyab12@aol.com
So be strong and courageous! Do not be afraid and do not panic before them. For the L ord your God will personally go ahead of you. He will neither fail you nor abandon you.”
2) Can I count on you to get involved? Stuart has asked me for very specific ways to get our community and our state involved! If I can count on you, would you comment below: “I’m in!”. Sadly I know this is a topic some people aren’t quite ready to put out there yet that they too want to fight for life! (because of all the private messages I get). So if you are more comfortable emailing me or private messaging me on Facebook, that is fine too! Please JUST DO IT.
And before we go, please please check out their first video promo here:<p><a href=”http://vimeo.com/68532652″>Voiceless – Chapter 01</a> from <a href=”http://vimeo.com/user19001834″>Voiceless</a> on <a href=”https://vimeo.com”>Vimeo</a>.</p>
Silence in the face of evil is itself evil: God will not hold us guiltless. Not to speak is to speak. Not to act is to act.
— Dietrich Bonhoeffer